seven

upon seeing the so-called deity，i am not surprised. i merely undress，making myself ready for the ”deity‘s” feast.

eight

from the very beginning，i knew i was the sole offering in this ceremony.

nine

the child in my mother‘s womb is born. that is the next offering i leave to the family，the next ”me”. in eighteen years，he too will bee a priest.

ten

the ceremony will not cease; all will be trapped in the cycle of rebirth. and i，i write the beginning of this tale.

第4章 《富士山下》《昨日重现》

《富士山下》

beneath the fuji mountain

一

我在富士山下卖，一半过去卖给自己，一半未来卖给行人。

i sell apples at the foot of mount fuji，half sold in the past to myself，and half in the future to passersby.

二

本就甘甜，我从不多加叙述，那些前来的人们自然会吃下这份无味的甘甜。

apples are naturally sweet; i never eborate much，for those who e will naturally partake of this sweetness without fvor.

三

孤独的人拿起团圆，悲伤的人拿起喜悦，他们在幸福中感受生命，然后用荒草堆起高高的坟墓，筑成被尘埃遮蔽的树。

lonely people grasp reunions，sorrowful ones seize joy，feeling life within happiness，then pile up tall tombs with wild grass，constructing apple trees veiled by dust.

四

待到春天，我会摘下树的，然后哭泣，在原地不停徘徊，画地为牢，最后将树砍去。

when spring arrives，i‘ll pick the apples from the apple tree，then weep，endlessly wandering in pce，drawing a circle as my prison，finally cutting down the apple tree.

五

我也将自己种植，可树枝上空无一物，像是快要自尽的词汇，连同伤口一并揭开展露。

i also pnt myself，yet there‘s nothing on the branches，like words on the verge of suicide，exposing wounds along with themselves.

六